Monthly Archives: May 2007

Pursuit of Happyness


This past weekend, my family got together and watched the movie “The Pursuit of Happyness”.

I, who had almost killed myself riding my bike and babysitting for demonic six year olds, was not really happy. Sure, I’ll admit that the sight of Will Smith’s face is a sight for sore eyes, but I was not happy. I have felt ignored, forgotten, and generally unwanted in my home in the last month. My family has been going through major issues health wise, emotion wise. My mother has been troubled with changes in her life. No, even with the joy I expressed and genuinly felt, I was not happy.

The movie ends. I won’t give it away if you haven’t seen it, you one reader of mine. But I will tell you that I got it. Someone very dear to me once said that “You have a good home, a good life… just look at the rest of the world and then tell me that you have problems.”

He couldn’t have been more correct.

While the movie focused on the downsides of life and the utter lows that one may hit, it was surrounding a greater message of hope, ambition and devotion. Hope for a future, ambition to become the impossible, and devotion to a dream and to family. I realized that even in the least and worst circumstances, I can find “happyness”. It doesn’t have to be in the absolute good I may experience, but instead the worst excentuates the brightest stars of joy and accomplishment. Example… At one point, Will Smith as Chris Gardener and his son are staying in a homeless shelter for a night. Though it seems that life has finally hit its worst, he ends up fixing a machine that he is trying to sell. The light coming from the fixed product was the absolute blinding light of hope. No one shouted for it to be extinguished, no one came over and turned it off themselves. It just… shone. That was a beautiful ray of hope for me.

 I am happy.

I cannot change my situation nor can I stop God from acting. But, I can affect the attitude of those around me and embrace the best in my worst. My own little “Pursuit of Happyness”.

If you are there, please tell me. This much I need to know.

~H~

If 21 is the legal drinking age…


Then why are we pretending it’s 17?

Today at school, a mock accident is being staged by SADD to show the dangers of drinking and driving, especially around Prom time. I, who is not planning on drinking OR doing drugs before this event, feel as if I am being forced to go. I understand the depth of this issue, since students are naturally thick skulled and ignorant to the deep impact and damage of such a disaster. However, at least those raised in this school system, we have all been pumped full of these “skills for healthy life” since first grade. DARE, Health class, SADD… If people have not gotten the message from these warnings, how will seeing a bunch of their classmates playing dead make any more difference? We all watch movies. Even if you say you don’t, it cannot be avoided. Many movies have either an actual scene of a drunk driver smashing his vehicle or the discussion of one’s death by this theme. “Bad Boys II”, “Intolerable Cruelty” to name a few. If we have seen these portrayals of the dangers of drinking and driving, then h0w will viewing it outside make any difference? If anything, it will make less of an impact because we all know it is a “mock accident”.

People will probably read this and call me a heathenish cynic for attempting to drive away (no pun intended) the idea of trying to warn teenagers about the dangers of throwing back a few cold ones before sliding behind the wheel. But in actuality, all this does is give teens the impression that they are allowed to drink before age 21. By even suggesting that drinking and driving would occur, it’s like… unspoken permission to do that. While yes, it may be warning against it, many will only embrace that activity.

And for those of us clean and non-promming, what’s in it for us?
I get to miss ASL, my easiest class of the day. Boy, big incentive.

So really… if the legal age is far above what any of our high school ages, why are they acting as if it is now?

Once again, think what you will. The reason I am here is to give my opinion… nothing more.

~H~

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